Orphans.

im not going as an SM. it would be better to wait. i havent posted anything for a while. but i think its time to.

ive been dreaming the past couple of nights. its really sad cause theyre the types of dreams where i wish that they would have actually happened, and i woke up to a hard reality.

in one dream i was working at a camp, and the girl i loved came to visit me. i laid down on the bed, and there in the cabin she was standing looking at me with sad, wet eyes. she started shaking a little and said "how can i help you to move on?". in the dream i didn't care, i didnt care at all.
when i remember this dream i think about the importance of moving on. things didn't work out between us, and since i invested so much of myself into her, it makes it not only hard on my life, but this dream points out that it takes its toll on hers. i never really thought about it that way, but it could be true i guess.