starting southern again

maybe i stopped caring. i saw a girl that made me all nervous, and ya it was hard for me to speak to her, but i see no need to pursue anything this year. dating, and pursuing girls has been a big part of my life, and its sort of weird to be away from that and genuinely not care about the ordeal.

the romantic pursuit is highly glorified, and because im away from it, i don't really know what to do. i do see pressure, but i don't care.

i had a dream a while back that i smelled some sweet incense smoke and this girl i went to highschool with came up in the dream and was sorta lecturing me, saying " Why did you do that, now you'll never be alone" i think girlfriends are over-rated, and a bunch more work than i realize. and unless im serious about a girl, i dont see any use in starting a partnership. the dream made me realize that never being alone can be a bad thing. like what if this chic is bad for me?

i dont have any answers.

sometimes i feel a muse can be persued, but if it is caught, than it is no longer a muse, therefor either ill be single forever, or i will stop trying to write songs.